"Birds make great sky-circles
of their freedom.
How do they learn it?
They fall, and falling,
they are given wings."

-Rumi (translated by Coleman Barks)

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Back to Basics

I'm a little too proud of the clever title of today's post. I'm in the middle of finals, but finally have some time to sit down and update. For all those who have emailed me this past week- I promise I will get back to you very shortly. I'm currently in a Border's after my first appointment back to Beyond Basics. Currently searching for a power outlet... why are there never enough? Physical therapy today was very difficult. As much as I take pride in being proactive, there is also something to be said for not having any PT for three weeks. I've been so focused on my tonsils and getting through that surgery, that I forgot about dealing with this problem. That may seem a little crazy, but I'm sure others will agree. It still hurts just as muc, but when I am not going to therapy or specialist appointments, I also don't have to face and constantly re-access my health condition. Obviously that's what we should be trying to do in order to get better, but it is nice to have that burden lifted for even a short while. I almost convince myself I'm living a normal life. But I digress. Today was back to reality, and a pretty harsh reality check at that.

I've noticed these past two weeks that my gluteus muscles in particular have been extremely tight and uncontrollable. By this I mean they are constantly in a locked position and no matter what I do, they are impossible to release. This is what makes sitting so difficult and painful. Today we did a lot of deep connective tissue work, which had me jumping off the table. I am usually pretty good at just breathing and relaxing and handling the pain, but my muscles were fired up. It was very noticeable, and it might have been the tightest I have been in months. Interestingly, my right side was the most painful. Stacey thinks I'm overcompensating again for my left hip. I also have to go back now and get an MRI of my right hip because there might be something be wrong. I'll have to go back, because I thought I did have my right hip looked at, but maybe things have changed. I sure hope not.

Below is a diagram of your glutes just so I can better demonstrate where the pain was radiating from. If you look at the bottom of the red muscles, the pain was strongest on the inside, following that reddish curve upwards. It was a sharp, direct pain, and now that it has been worked on, is pulsing and extremely sensitive.

This is where all the work was done today and it was greatly needed. I felt a little release when I tried sitting again, but the problem is I'm too sore and in pain to notice a difference just yet. I think after tomorrow I should see some improvement. We went over some better ways for me to sit. First of all, if you ever see me cross my legs, yell at me. I always forget since it's such a natural inclination. I should be sitting all the way back in a chair with my stomach released and my legs positioned at 90 degree angles. Even more important, when I am ready to stand, I have to keep my legs straight (and not turn them inwards) and stand up with equal pressure on both sides of my body. These are things I need to try and be more conscious of because I'm sure they will make a difference in the contraction of my muscles. Now that I'm surgery-free, I also need to get back on the elliptical to loosen up my body, as well as resume core work, hip stretches, and dilator exercises. So, it's back to work and back to basics. (Oh circular narratives...)

5 comments:

Lora said...

I've been trying so hard to stop crossing my legs, and had to uncross when you wrote about it!

On the days that I'm good about it, and good about putting my butt all the way back I can really tell a difference.

Thanks!

Alex said...

Hi Tamra!

Thanks for the heads up about sitting! I've been doing the opposite by switching from one cheek to the other but I'm going to try your suggestion to see how it goes.

Have you considered yoga instead of the elliptical? I've found that yoga has made a huge difference for me because it does such a good job at strengthening the core (and will probably help with those tight muscles!)

Also, I've found that massages for the lower back and glutes really help with the pain. I've found the cheapest massage rates at chiropractor's offices (who knew?!). I pay $15 for 15-20 minutes and it makes a big difference (but isn't too expensive).

I have a website that I've dedicated to information about Vulvar Vestibulitis (I just "debuted" it a couple days ago so it's still a little rough around edges!). It's called Vulvar Vestibulitis Relief

Would it be ok with you if I put a link to your blog on my website? My email is VVRelief@gmail.com.

Good luck with everything! Thanks for blogging about this!

Love, Alex

Unknown said...

I'll make sure to yell at you next time I see you crossing your legs! And you know if you want a massage in December i'll be around!

Anonymous said...

I was diagnosed with vulvar vestibulitis yesterday. I have been on this journey for a decade and in that time I have tried dozens of creams, pt, acupuncture, injections and consulted with countless doctors. I have been with my husband for 8 years and have had intercourse with him twice in the past six.

The specialist yesterday suggested surgery. I am so upset and angry about this whole condition and am overwhelmed that this may be my best option at this point. UGH!

The problem remains that the opening tissue is so broken down that it tears with minimal touch such as with toilet paper.

Help!!

Alex said...

Dear Anonymous,

I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through!

I'd like to throw out an idea for you because I went through the same thing with thin/cracked skin and I've had a lot of success with a treatment: my doctor prescribed me a compound estrogen/testosterone cream. Have you tried this?

I also tried just estrogen cream but that alone is not enough; apparently it is an imbalance of both estrogen and testosterone so both must be present to repair the glands and therefore the skin.

This alone took my pain down from about an 8 to a 2-3.

I also use pure Sea Buckthorn oil (used in Europe for women with skin/cracked skin due to hormonal imbalances) which I found online. It has a ton of Vitamin A and other compounds that make it really really good for repairing/maintaining skin.

It feels amazing on the skin. But warning: it's orange and stains so use a pad.

You can find a lot more information at my website Vulvar Vestibulitis Relief.

Before you jump into surgery (!!) I'd read this article though: The Truth About Vulvar Vestibulitis.