"Birds make great sky-circles
of their freedom.
How do they learn it?
They fall, and falling,
they are given wings."

-Rumi (translated by Coleman Barks)

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Struggle

Do you know reader how many times I have ended up here on the floor, trapped in my body?
Do you know how desperately I try to keep going?
There are some nights I don't have the strength.
I want to talk, but this is all I know how to do. This, and pushing people away.

I wanted to drive far away today. To find where the road ends. But I've already tried that.
Did you know it just goes on and on and on?

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Tamra-

I have been reading your blog for a long time now. I'm 21, and have suffered from vulvodynia, IC, and nerve pain. Like you, I've had very dark times when I felt I did not have the strength to endure another single day. Things got better, but continue to have setbacks. Please know your voice has been an inspiration for me, and that you're a beautiful writer.

Thank you.

Amanda said...

Thank you for sharing - it is so important to not be silent about female sexual and vaginal disorders. I myself have vaginismus, and I know it can be hard when no one even understands what it is.